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Kait Bennett's avatar

I hope you always get little signs. About a year after my mum passed away, she visited me in a dream and everything was (as much as it could be) clearer after that.

And screenshot the texts so you'll always have them.

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Gillian Orr's avatar

Sorry about your mum and I look forward to the dreams 🤍

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Carmen Jimenez's avatar

Thinking of you. This was beautiful and you're right, grief is real but everything is going to be alright 🤍

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Gillian Orr's avatar

Thank you 🤍

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Nicole Costello's avatar

Sending you love, both my parents died a long time ago and the grief still lingers ❤️

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Gillian Orr's avatar

Oh thank you for your sweet comment and sending love back <3

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Dana's avatar

I was so fixated on the weather the week my mom died in April of this year. The day she died was a day I described to my friend as a day so beautiful I somewhat egostically imagine it is only possible in NY. But maybe you have days like that in London too.

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Gillian Orr's avatar

Once in a while we do. So sorry to hear about your mum, sending love x

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Dana's avatar

Same about your father. Sending you all the best as you ride the waves of grief.

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Pandora Sykes's avatar

I've only just read this - and learned of your father's passing - and I wanted to send you love and strength and thank you for sharing this beautiful, generous piece with us x

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Gillian Orr's avatar

Thanks Pandora x

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Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

beautiful beautiful beautiful. thank you for sharing—i'm so sorry for your loss. sending love🤍

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Kathryn Davies's avatar

As soon as I saw the heading for your post, I knew you had lost someone because that song found me when my Dad died last year and I kept playing it. I hadn't even heard it before and it came up in some suggestions on my music app. There is some comfort in it as well as bitter loss, particularly the line "I'm feeling sacred, my soul is stripped" because in these moments of grief there is also some kind of sacredness that you can easily miss in life's normal busyness. Also I listened to A Year of Magical Thinking on my daily trips to the hospital to see my Dad. I am sorry for your loss and I hope you continue to find comfort in music, writing and nature.

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Gillian Orr's avatar

So sorry about your dad and completely agree about that line. How funny that we both found the same song 🤍

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Katy Close's avatar

So beautifully put. The birds are messengers for sure.

♥️

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george barnett's avatar

beautiful

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Neil MacLean's avatar

This was so incredibly lovely a read. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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